I am not what I used to be, maybe I have grown used to this now.

I had always been a decent student, I gave studies as much importance any other kid would. I used to play, but when it was time to study I was always sincere in my efforts.

I wasn't gifted enough to have maths or science fall in love with me. I always knew that it was my effort that would matter in the end. I thought maybe if I tried hard enough and loved my studies sincerely, then one day, in spite of my mediocrity, the subject would smile back and maybe love me a little.

I am after all destiny's orphan, I am not resorting to self pity, but am stating the facts as they are. I continue to toil with my inadequacies and continue to labor under my fallacies, without knowing what they are and if i was born with them or managed to somehow acquire them through the course of my cursed life.

I have learnt to live with it and not question it, I have resorted to being happy in my losses.

I have learnt that people are loved for what they are and not who they are.